One year later...

Can you believe the year is almost over?

One month till we all make those new years resolutions that so many of us do so well at keeping (jokes)...one month until christmas will be pretty much over and january will begin...one month till the hectic new year comes crashing through the door and all we can do is stare at it in the face hoping that God will give us the most strength possible to deal with what might come.

November 19th marked a pretty significant day for me. It made me wonder what next year will bring. You see, now I'm baffled about life, because once you think something is going to happen and it doesn't, you wonder what will ever happen in life, and if the measly little idea you have about your life is even remotely close to the broad, yet incredibly specific, picture that God has.

But you know, sometimes (and by sometimes, I mean a lot of times) I worry when I wonder. I don't know why I do...I think because maybe that's me trying to take control and I can't do it...so I get scared.

So, I've decided to enjoy this Christmas by not pondering what next year will bring. Obviously I have no clear idea... so why waste my time thinking about it, right?

I think instead, I'm going to sit by my christmas tree... and reflect on what has happened in my life during this past year. And rather than worrying about how I'm going to deal with everything in the year to come (because I'm slowly beginning to realize that I don't have to), I will use my time to think about how unbelievably supportive and loving my family, my friends, and, most importantly, Jesus has been through it all.